Just when I thought I wouldn’t have anything to write about, random strangers came into my life and gave me ideas to put down. It’s strange how the world works. This is one of the reasons why believe your life is already set for you, and you just have to go through each day and live it. My Strong ability to sense spirit came in 2 different ways this week. I had 2 different people come into have photos printed. The first time was a girl about my age. Now I had no clue until she handed me the photo and I automatically had an overwhelming feeling that the girl in the photo had passed. I didn’t say anything to her but I just knew. This has happened to me in the past and I was right after asking that person.
The second person came in, but this time I didn’t know. I didn’t know because the person hadn’t passed. We were printing her photos and she told me that the a baby was in a coma. First thing she said was “hug your kids” I immediately got a heavy heart. I turned into the comforter, The consoler. I didn’t ask what happened, but I just told her to be strong and take each moment as it comes. She asked me to say a prayer. I told her that today was my sisters birthday and she is no longer here to celebrate with us, so you have extra prayers coming. We talked for a minute or two. I told her about how young my mom was and how young my sister was. I said there is only one road to take and it’s the high road. When someone has died or close to it, you should always want to live your life through them (goodgrievings😉)
I shook the ladies hand and said be strong and take care. I hope to think she will remember our conversation and be able to help the parents of that sweet baby. I hope she will remember our convo and know that she isn’t alone. I hope that I helped her soul feel a little better about herself. This is one of my goals in life. To make others feel better about themselves when Grief sets in.
“Starting over” so many people are scared of that phrase. There is absolutely no reason to be. I left the state I grew up in and for the longest time I would say I’m never leaving. I obviously left and it was one of the best decisions I have ever made. After 8 years in Arizona it was time to do it again, I started over. So here’s a kid growing up telling himself that he would never leave New Jersey and live there forever. After all I had been through why wouldn’t I want to leave, Right? Some people would have just stayed and sulked about not being able to leave. My wife and I took the chance. No job and newly married, what did we have to lose? It all works out in ways we may not understand. You put your faith and trust in whatever you believe in and go with it, cause we ALL know you only live once.
I feel like your life is already planned for you, and that you just have to go along and live it the best way possible. The more positive you are about your life the easier it will be for you to see through it. Don’t get me wrong it wasn’t easy at first. The anxiety and mind racing and all the other stuff that comes with it was all there. It took a few months and some counseling for myself to get through the change, but it was ALL worth it. Only you can make the choice of how to live your life. If something happens to you and you cant deal with it, seek the help! Talk to your friends/family, heck come here to my blog and read all my posts of the all bad hands that I was dealt and how I got through them. How I had to grow up in a blink of and eye. How I moved across the country twice. How I thought I would have a happy go lucky family growing up. If I sound a little angry, I am, but I have learned to deal with it. I will always have anger and those sad feelings. It’s all ok to have them. You wouldn’t be human if you didn’t. My grief has been turned into goodgrievings 🙂 So keep spreading those Positive Vibes, Spread the Love, and Give a hug.