I believe this is what has been holding me back from writing more. The fear of what I am about to write about. I shouldn’t say fear because it’s all in my mind. It’s just me holding myself back. I don’t really care what people think, but when it comes to a sensitive subject like this for some reason I do. As you know from reading my post about Eddie I have a heightened sense of spirit. I’m not crazy, I’m not abnormal for being like this, heck everyone has the ability to sense spirit. There maybe some individuals out there right now that are in the same position I’m in and don’t wanna say anything cause they aren’t sure. Well this post is for you my friend. Tell someone, it may just help you.
Going back to my story about Eddie and what felt like a conversation with him actually being here. That made me realize that this is real, and that I can feel the presence of spirit. There are two that are around almost all of the time. One is Eddie who I miss a little more this month since our birthdays were a day after each other. The Second one is my god sister Amanda. Those 2 are the main ones around me all the time. Protecting me and watching over me. They say there is a “witching hour” between 3-5 am. I can’t tell you how many times I have been awoken between these times. I’m awake now because of work but I would say 5 out of 7 days I wake up between these times. I do fall back to sleep but it takes time.
This may sound funny but I do talk to them sometimes. Sometimes I just acknowledge that they are around and go about my day. They are close to me now as I write this post. It’s a stronger presence, maybe because I’m finally writing about it, I don’t know. As I mentioned I did do a reading with a physic medium and was told that I’m not the type of person who would be able to handle helping others with senseing there loved ones. I was told I wouldn’t be able to handle the emotions. I disagree with that because I as I stated I feel like I’m here to help others. I love to comfort others in time of need, even if they aren’t looking for it. It goes back to that sayingThis couldn’t be more of the truth. I never knew the relationship I have with my Cousin (the blogging from paradise guy) would be as strong as it is today. We could go a month without talking, and have a convo as if we just spoke the day before. I have another friend that I text with almost every day who was there for me in a time of need when my sister passed. We could just talk shit to one another that makes no sense but that’s what friends do right. People come and people go in life, but you all know the ones that you can reach out to and will be there, even if it’s been a while that you haven’t spoke.
Back to my story, during my reading I was told specifically to pay attention to my spirit guides. I haven’t been more clear since I started to do this. I’m a thinker, I think everything happens for a reason, which it does and some of you may not believe this. I almost always ask my spirit guides a yes or no question about a specific topic that just happened. Everyone has spirit guides and with my heightend senses maybe it works better for me. If you think I’m a crazy guy then so be it. This may be helping someone, which is the purpose of this blog anyway. These are my #goodgrievings. It’s my life and after Eddie passed it has opened me up to a whole new spiritual life I didn’t know I had. I’m not talking spiritual life like I go to church every week and sing praise. I’m a normal guy who has a heightened sense of spirit. It’s comforting, knowing that I have watchers…. until next time live, laugh, love goodgrievings