It’s me again, I’m back!! Noone ever told me that blogging would be easy. I mean I thought it would be since I’m writing about my life and all the crap I have been through, both good and bad. Blogging is hard, it’s hard when you first start off. For the last couple of weeks I was thinking I ran out of things to blog about. Even though I was writing to help you, and myself it was bringing up those feelings. Sad, angry feelings. It wasn’t that I was angry or sad but my mood seem to change. It is probably because I’m digging up those feelings that I have and had from the loss of my mom and sister. It’s ALL ok though. It’s ok to feel it. I had a convo with my cousin the other night, ya may know him. (The blogging from paradise guy) Ryan Himself. He brought me down to earth and reiterated that it is all ok!!!! Even with me writing and telling you it’s all ok, sometimes I have to be told the same thing.
Grieving is something we all have got to deal with. 17 years and now 8 years today after my mom and sister died I’m still grieving in a way. So I’m back to continue to tell you ITS ALL OK. I have a heavy heart today. Today marks the day 8 years ago that I lost my little sister to a heart attack. Who would have ever thought at 25 something could happen to someone that young. Unfortunately it did and it’s a part of life. It’s the hand I was dealt. So I ll truck on with my day knowing she is at peace and smiling down on me. I know she is proud of me for what I have accomplished and have done with my life so far. I ll take all these good grievings with me today, her memories her crazy self and awesome smile and know that she is always with me.
So my friends, take the memories of your lossed loved ones with you everyday. They will help to get through the tough times. Focus on them and smile when you remember the good times. That’s what I will be doing today and everyday. It’s the easy way to make you remember all the fun you had together. Smile on and live laugh love