Blogging is tough

It’s me again, I’m back!! Noone ever told me that blogging would be easy.  I mean I thought it would be since I’m writing about my life and all the crap I have been through, both good and bad.  Blogging is hard, it’s hard when you first start off. For the last couple of weeks I was thinking I ran out of things to blog about. Even though I was writing to help you, and myself it was bringing up those feelings. Sad, angry feelings.  It wasn’t that I was angry or sad but my mood seem to change.  It is probably because I’m digging up those feelings that I have and had from the loss of my mom and sister.   It’s ALL ok though.  It’s ok to feel it.  I had a convo with my cousin the other night, ya may know him. (The blogging from paradise guy) Ryan Himself.  He brought me down to earth and reiterated that it is all ok!!!!   Even with me writing and telling you it’s all ok, sometimes I have to be told the same thing.  

Grieving is something we all have got to deal with.  17 years and now 8 years today after my mom and sister died I’m still grieving in a way.  So I’m back to continue to tell you ITS ALL OK.   I have a heavy heart today.  Today marks the day 8 years ago that I lost my little sister to a heart attack.  Who would have ever thought at 25 something could happen to someone  that young.  Unfortunately it did and it’s a part of life. It’s the hand I was dealt.  So I ll truck on with my day knowing she is at peace and smiling down on me. I know she is proud of me for what I have accomplished and have done with my life so far. I ll take all these good grievings with me today, her memories her crazy self and awesome smile and know that she is always with me. 

So my friends, take the memories of your lossed loved ones with you everyday. They will help to get through the tough times. Focus on them and smile when you remember the good times. That’s what I will be doing today and everyday.  It’s the easy way to make you remember all the fun you had together.  Smile on and live laugh love
Cheers,

Tom

Signs from above 

I wanted to share a part of my day from yesterday. Signs from your loved ones are all around you. I notice them often and I don’t believe in coincidence. In one of my recent posts about MY MOM I mentioned dimes being a sign I see all the time in random places. I was at the beach last weekend and a small little butterfly flew right passed me while I was in the ocean. I mean come on, I rarely see a butterfly in the ocean. These signs are around to let you know your loved ones are watching and are with you.
Yesterday at work was a rare 3 for 3 sign day. I started at a new store a few days ago as I work In retail. I found a shirt still in plastic that had the name of my company on it. These shirts we can order for us to where and are free to us. Anyway, the size shirt was my size and earlier in the day I was saying to myself “I need to order some new shirts” later on that day I was helping a customer and there was a password that came up that I had to enter to move forward. In that password my moms initials CB and my sister initials KT for Katie where apart of the the PW. They were right after each other. I didn’t realize it at first but read it again and a smile came to my face. The last sign was later that night a girl walked into the store. I saw her a few times walking around the store but didn’t notice until she checked out that she resembled my god sister (I talk about her in my last post (living my life). The girls face was similar and had the same piercing on her face as my Godsister did.

Signs are everywhere. Open up yourself and notice them. They are around you for a reason. Another sign of good grievings! Take those memories of your loved ones with you all the time. Keep smiling 😃 Until next time live laugh love
Cheers,
Tom